I love u very much

Dear dear,

Seriously, I am scared that i am _____. I'm emotional and crazy now. I'm breaking down inside. I hope you're there to hold me together still. Tell me that i'm not, prove it to me, please dear. I want this month to pass quick, I want the prove that it's not what I think. I need the prove. Now whenever I cough my mind gives me trauma.

I miss the times when we have a pure, innocent relationship. The times before our exams ended last year. From now on, you know what i"m seeking. We're not going to instigate each other. We're going to help each other. We're going to work together. Our body is the temple of God. We're going to protect our body.

I love it when I'm close to you, and your life. I love being in your house, and watching tv on the couch, it is really blissful. I miss eating your mum's spaghetti and telling you that it's wonderful. I miss all the good times, like how we mugged at teadot. I miss your sudden crazyness when you suddenly told me you want to tell your parents about us. I miss those times too dear. I hate those times when we indulge in bad pleasures, they make me scared, they haunt me, they make me wake up many times from my sleep. They even haunt me in my dreams.

I am so afraid that whatever has happened in term1 this year would repeat itself. It is really scary. I am so scared, so cold, so alone.

I hate that feeling. I love our innocent, and carefree days.

Love,

Sarah.

Nicer

Hi dear,

This is what makes me happy lately, getting closer to you. These 2 weeks have brought me closer to you, your life in particular. Getting to know your family better makes me happy, it connects my life and your life, as one. I like it when your family recognizes me as your girlfriend, because then I am reassured of my presence in your very life. I know you're getting really PMS-y lately because of the not very distant stress, it's like a train and you're on the platform, right? It's about how, whether or not, you're going to fall on the railway, then the train aka OLVL hits you there, flat. So you're balancing your life right now, keeping it constantly stable, so you'd never fall onto the burning tracks, so you'd board the train and head towards liberation, happily and successfully. Yes I know you're stressed, that's a good thing though. It means you know your end in mind, and you're working towards the best. Well, I'd just like to let you know that this journey you're travelling, you're not alone. So at your deepest darkest moments, when you're frantic about your grades and tumbling down, do remember that I'm travelling the distance with you, your family is too. We're all next to you, catching you even if you fall. But let that not be the reason you make yourself vulnerable, let that be the reason why you strife even harder. Because I want you to succeed, because your future is mine as well, and so you have to do well, for yourself, for your family, for me, for us.

Cupid

Today was nat'l day celebration at school.

Went to school just for a formal ceremony and a concert.

Which totally made me miss Enive alot..

Then, I went to parkway with Jt and we had lots of fun talking.

Alright, then I met Ying Liang and we went to Tampines, having nothing to do.

Walked around aimlessly for awhile,

then went over to somewhere around his Grandma's for Icecream!

Had double choc! He had green tea and strawberry :)

then we went back to Tampines and searched around for sports shoes.

Yingliang needed new ones cos his old one was worn and torn.

Found cheap bargains of New Balance and Asics ...

So we went to find his mom and told her about it.

Did homework and revised at Teadot while waiting for his mum's hairdo.

After which, we had dinner with his bro and mum.

His bro rushed off for piano so his mum, him and i went to buy his pair of shoes.

Then I went home.

Going over to his place again tomorrow.

Great!

o.o

命运好幽默， 让爱的人都沉默。

Hello dear, I love the sentence above.

I promised you to blog so here I am.

I'm so glad your parents are supportive in our relationship.

But sometimes I feel as though they would rather it if we weren't together.

I hope that's not an obstacle though!

Maybe they think we're not compatible or what, so they keep demoralizing you.

In any case, I hope that their perception would take change.

I don't know why there are some things that have to be so regulated.

Maybe it's just like that. Sigh.

I feel like pretending that your parents never knew. Maybe it'd be better that way.

Just ask your bro, and go ahead with the plans.

Since you can't make time to meet me this Saturday, it's okay.

I think that I utilize my time on other measures too.

I have to admit that I was quite disappointed, but I am consoling myself.

I know I sound like a expressionistic maniac, but I can't help it.

Because I'm so restricted to feelings of being wanted and being rejected I find myself fluctuating between these two platforms and trying to get a grip but all the time failing.

Time in the past, my experiences, since I was in primary school, gave me all the nightmares of rejection and acceptance.

It is sensitive and an area that has been exposed times, again.

Life is weird isn't it? Kidding us in the most ways available. I find life peculiar too.

It plays with desires and tramples with weak spots.

I don't know if you'd really understand what i'm writing.

I just hope that your parents can see this in a more positive light.

And you would put in the share of effort to convince them, the amount of effort I have risked so many times before, to convince my parents.

God bless.

Love u.

Love,

Dear! (: Missed you so much. And i miss you still, I really want your o levels to be over in a breeze! Then the world will be ours. We have to go around tasting food okay, and watching sunrises, and recording music, and attending musicals. Okay, for that, we need money.

You know what? I think we shouldn't go Australia. For me, it's too much a financial burden since my parents don't want to sponsor me. Why don't we take that amount of money to enjoy holiday instead of going overseas for 2 weeks and scrimp and come back broke! :(

I think that we should go shopping and choose clothes for each other etc, because it's really really fun to do that. I'm so glad to be the first girl you choose sizes for!

Anyway, I really love u.

& I'm going to wash my hair now.

I hope that you will devote yourself to God one day.

Because he is the way, the truth and the light.

Bye!

HEY, ALTHOUGH i'D MISS YOU ALOT. But I still wish that you've a great time in Taiwan okay?! :) Must enjoy yourself and buy many things for me okay? I want many many t shirts leh dear! and many many things. Yes you've got a very greedy girlfriend. Too bad! who ask you love cute girl? haha joking la. Love you. I iwll miss u so much!

Anyway, I want to let you know that I'm very sorry for doing those kind of stuff. I know it sucks and I felt very bad whilst doing it. I won't do it again. Won't let you feel disappointed in me already! Okay? I love you the most la. and I love you only! Really!!!!!

Also, i want to remind you that, I wANt 21 cupcakes on our 2nd year! I DONT CARE! :) hahahha. yes la i owe you many many presents la. hahahhaa. yay hope we get our couple shirts soon so can wear out tgt. hope term time can see you more often. every friday? know you wanna hui wei last time la. i also want. i also miss last time! so innocent and all (: love it.

love you. sorry this post abit short. bubt it's what i really wanna say. i cannot say how much i love you. cos it's unexpressable de! Love you too much. Miss you! Wana hug youuuu!

Byebye (i'm shy!)

love,

cutegirl.

很久以后

情人：

现在两点。 半小时以前， 还刚和你通电话。

那通电话令我感伤， 发现我们的感情已经不像从前的那样。

有可能是因为我们愈熟悉对方， 因此给彼此不够的尊重， 不够的关乎， 想对方应该宽容地了自己的所为。 我们错了！

才十六岁的我们，谈的恋爱应该甜蜜， 因该充满乐趣， 没有多大的烦恼。

我们应该把恋爱的世界看成一本童话故事， 小王子，小公主的世界。 我们的爱情故事也应该是一本梦中私奔的游记。

你我的错， 是我们把这一份感情看得太实际了。 我们忘了什么是一瞬间能造成的喜悦， 心跳加速的感觉， 到底是怎么的? 我们都忘了。

我想， 现在的你和从前的你比起， 有很大的改变。 不知是好是坏。 你变得更有主见， 更有男人的味道， 更懂得男人的沉重， 更沉静。 但同时， 你也变得更可怕， 更冷漠无情， 更疯狂， 更固执。有时， 我真讨厌现在的你， 真得很讨厌。 你对我说话的语气变得没有感情。 你对我的态度显出你的无奈无心。 你对我的感受毫不在乎。 你仿佛忘了我是你的情人。

也许， 你也发现了我的改变。 你也讨厌这样的我。我们都变了。

我不接受我们现在的感情。 我觉得它很虚伪， 没有从前的单纯美丽。

我们必须接受对方， 为彼此真心的付出， 让从前的暧昧， 的梦， 的单纯浪漫从新地飘荡。 不再是陌生人的我们， 也不应该因为熟悉对方而忽略彼此的感受， 以为对方应该认同自己的选择。

我们才十六岁。 爱情， 我们并不是很了解， 对以后的世界我们谁也认不定。在成长的路途， 在爱情的各个转角， 我们都没有100%的确定。

我希望我们的爱情能反复到从前的单纯， 从前的小浪漫， 从前的梦游， 从前的微笑。

两个人的爱情故事应该是寻找幸福， 不是失去幸福而煎熬。

两个人的爱情应该是接受体谅， 而不是纵容无奈。

两个人的爱情应该是真心， 不应该是习惯。

虽然你今晚已让我伤心流泪， 但我依然爱着你。

致

你的情人